Friday, July 06, 2012
Mayb is a good thing u dun come in anymore.
I can write whatever I wan in here.
Nothing's going good for us now. Everything is jus bad bad and bad.
I dun cry so often now. I feel upset and disappointed. I feel rejected now.
I think too highly of myself. I tot I'm important. Wrong.
I heard so many about u. But I tell myself. Noooo nothing of the sort. I know my boy better den anyone else. Things happen one by one. I start to question myself. I have the urge to blast out everything n ask u straight in the face. But I never. I continue putting in the trust which I should.
I dunno when I will see ur true face. Is everyone talking shit or I jus think too highly of u. Arghhhhh.
Love you. Not easy. I mean it. But I dunno bout u. This year jus seems so hard a big hurdle to pass.
1:50:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Monday, July 02, 2012
the times when i really ponder.
this few night was especially emotional. i guess u know how i feel too. but being us, u have ur stress too, i rather i dun tell u at all now. till i really have the time, den you will be my listening ear.
it's ok, as the clouds clear, runs make me feel calmer. i slowly understand. i know wat is good.
there's so many little things tat you do tat make me smile. u still have ur always cool cool style. but it meant so much to me somehow.
i'm worried now. worried down the months wat will happen. time pass too fast. money dun come as fast. i feel your.
love you my dear.
12:43:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
I was actually looking very foward to bkk.
But now with this so big group. I dunno how fun will it turn out to be. I'm a very pessimistic person. I tends to think alot. I get jealous i get cranky.
Very no link.
Till today i'm still very very afraid of losing you. Mayb you r right, i love you more den you love me. I'm still very much finding the courage for myself to leave you. I cant stand myself writing over here. Crying cos of i dunno whys. No calls no texts bcos i didnt come across ur mind. N lastly i'm not deserve to be treated well.
Mayb one day i will give up. Cry over a couple of months, put u in the deepest side of my heart and leave you. I dunno after this five years of together, how many years it will take me to forget you. But slowly i will. I will jus have to stay independent.
So much of memories. I'm very sure you are my everything, and i always wish i could give you everything. Not love i guess.
So much of promises u gave me. None came true, u told me so much of u would. Mayb all u wanted now was me to leave.
I suddenly dunno who this fatty is anymore, so cold.
12:42:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
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