I FEEL FREAKING DISSAPPOINTED AND LOUSY RIGHT NOW!
4years into this freaking relationship! i thought both us know each other very well. we know after each quarrels we will be back into each other arms. loving each other like the same.
i'm wrong. i'm the one who put so much into this. i'm the one who cant let go. i'm the one who give in to you. to send you a text to tell u. u actually mean so much to me. y? y mus i be a bitch?to put myself till so low. jus to hope for your little love. u can actually kill all my appetite. i lost my sleeps. who? who can create such a impact on me. the last thing is, i cant believe i'm all alone in this. jus me myself alone.
now i really cant differentiate. is ur L and M jus to put me to sleep. or u genuinely mean it.
now here i am again, knowing for 100% u wont read it till months later. if we will be well by den anot. losing my sleep for the second day. still not talking to u at all. n there u r. nth hurts u. i'm a nobody to u when u r drinking. telling me always not to hang out at all this places. cos u dun like. but there u r not preaching wat u r talking. hurting me with every single things u do.
why tell me all the loves, show me how to love when u dun even care abt me. wat do u actually care about.
i'm fucking upset now. eyes all sores. everything stuck in my mind. all u do is enjoy.
