dear.
is been a hell lot of work. the words we used and spoke were not even nice. everything got affected jus cos of work. if u say this wont affect us. i will disagree and be very sure. it will affect the both of us.
it hurts to see how things go this way. i jus hope you will stand with me to see wat thing went wrong n go thru them tgt. this is not wat is happening as we once talk about. it jus seems to be me alone. i'm really gonna get depression if this goes on. i literally breakdown and my mind went blank. i dunno wat's next. are u in this with me? or u r no longer in my arena but high up above.
u will get my respect only when the things you said is done. as much as i'm saying so many things that u dun wanna hear. i really wan things to be a success love.
i know things between us will never be like how it were. we might not even be together for long from now. there are many reasons. work is one that is driving both of us crazy.
i dun even know wat i wan now. is you that i miss every single day. but is also your style that i dunno how to understand and handle. we have been together so long but this is the first time i look back and ask myself. are you not the fatty that know me better den anyone else do?
i got no one else to turn to on this. i jus need to rant it all out here. hopefully it will make me feel better.
one last thing. you will be the one guy i love so much for once. i dunno when will i ever be ready to jus let you go. i hate things to end this way when we walk our own way not talking to each other.
love you. miss. hugs.
