i dunno how to explain to u.
i really hope u will take time to read wat i written too.
i dunno wat's going wrong. tat's so much changes in you tat u wont even see it urself too. u wont take the initiative to call me up like u used to. is only when u r awake n before u go home. tat's not the whole issue. nowadays is even hard to ask u to meet me up.
is especially hard being like us. so small things really matter to cheer me up sometimes. know tat u bother. i wont need to make noise to see u hear u hug u n even a goodbye kiss. dun we agree on tat? i tot we used to call them a routine. or is it all sweet talk right from the beginning. is only tat i take it too hard.
now... u can alrdy leave the kind of life without me. whenever we quarrel u choose to leave. so now wat is becoming of us. where's all the love u mention. telling me tat not having each other will end up in a coma. we will go thru thick n thins tgt. maybe i'm too serious for this. i dunno is affecting me so much.
i dun wan to hold you back
nor do i wan to let u go.
i will let you decide on this.
i dun wan if anything happens to us one day, u will say tat i'm forcing u to be with me. life gonna be alot different without you definitely. it will take me some long time to recover. i totally cant imagine wat is me without u.
is not easy. a two yr r/s. the love n time we spent on this tgt. the places we go. the things i used tat bought by you. everything i have contain a bit of u.
i need you to ask urself. do u still love me like you do? or us as a term mean nth to u now.
*i still love u alot to get out of all this shit. if ever given a chance to choose again. i would rather still have you two yrs back. the memories we have is unforgettable. i cried alot on this. but nevertheless we have many laughters too. i dunno how long or short we have each other. u seem to have some family plans i never know?
let me know. wat's ur plan? wat's goin to become of us?
ps. i love you fatty.
