i really dunno where i stand in u anymore.
i feel neglected. yes u got alot of things to do. i'm too demanding. my feelings towards u nv change. in fact it grows with each passing day. i still wan to see u everyday. wan u to make the effort to see me too everyday. i wan to hear i love you everyday. see texts to end my day. n voice to start my day.
is not like u posts everyday in this blog. those texts in my phone is to show me tat my fatty exist. u can go missing n not be contactable at all. whenever i saw those texts i will feel better. knowing u exist still loving me all the same.
i might not understand u. but my intention was just loving you too much.
suddenly everything changes. we used to lunch before work if i work in the noon. u will tell me wat's the plan for my morning shift after work. is either aunt hse or u. off day will be nicely called fatty day. is so different now. i seems to be in my own life n u in ur own.
u always say. u r here to bring a big fat smile to me. but this few weeks have been real shitty. i always tot u will understand me more den anyone else. u will be the first one to know y i'm feeling this way.
i dun wanna lose u so fast. i still wan u to be mine forever. but it jus seems so hard.
