Saturday, September 30, 2006

had practical early in the morning.
needed someone to wake me up.
as usual.
cant wake up n get late.
so lalala myself to school!!!

after prac went to j8!
wanted to photocopy soem stuff for deona's fren.
but but tat freakin sales girl got a freakin attitude!
SERVICE TOTALLY SUX!
walk ard n cant find any others.
so no choice.
she's givin hers n usin mine to zap!
so we SPENT our time in mos burger.
talkin bout so many stuff.
the past, present n future.
many things happens and changes in our life this few years.
we too can see the change n maturity in each other.
be it love, friendships or studies.
time changes all n of cos heal those hurtful wounds.
though much are left in memories!

actually wanted to proceed to town de.
but but the rain ruined all plan.
so stayed ard in jem condo n play pool.
i so so missed my old hse.
everything seem so perfect in condo life.
lunch at toa payoh after tat!
n HOME SWEET HOME! =DDD

i'm afraid.cant let go.
thoughts run wild whenever i'm alone.
thoughts bout the past.
the happy memories we shared!
maybe i'm too reliant once.
not so easy standind tall on my own!
if i'm given a choice again.
i hope we will still be frens.
probs wont be tat much at all.
is lettin go the only choice?
8:09:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!



our class crazy time!







jem, chee shen, daren n deona
most importantly! all pics have me!










justin is busy studyin!
the rest e5s are foolin.







dday!
this friendship last.














me n bao bei!
=DDD.
6:55:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Thursday, September 28, 2006

lalala.

got back results!
reali reali dissappointed.
IMAGINE the same results for o's!
*** gone case la.
mus start everything before is reali too late.

argh!
my night life is back.
sleep onli in the early morning.
AND go to school after 1 hour of sleep.
i'm collapsing.
KWOK XIAN LANG AND KENNY KOH!!!
stop disturbing ME!
ur no school but i still have OKAY?
hahas.
anyway talk alot bout the past. =(

i reali reali dunno wat's goin on.
the words are so different from the way ur behave,
wat m i goin to trust?
i know myself.
letting go is impossible now.
i need time.
everything is a heart pain.
is still too sudden to accept.
I"M SILLY!
7:14:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Tuesday, September 26, 2006

me deona and charmaine!!!
















lang lei! shhhhh...
11:26:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

today got back most of the paper.
i think my class is the slowest to get back every single paper lor.
should i say whether i'm happy of my results or should i not?
seriously i do improved la.
but but the grade still remain!!!
lols but seriously now...
i'm much much more motivated to study fnn.
hoping to get a A at least? hahas...
***m i dreaming?
other subjects like science, POA and humanities!!!
I REALLY GOT TO BUCK UP!!!

TMR will be getting back math!
hopefully will at least pass.
i don wan math to affect me!
i wan wan so so badly to get out of this school!
*pray hard pls* =P

ur image seems blurred.
i'm thinking once again.
am i missing YOU again?
i wanna let go.
but it isn't easy.
can i stop the love n concern for YOU?
there is hate and love in ME!
10:48:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

today school is back to as per normal!
no more prelims.
results are getting back slowly.
i'm reali reali demoralised by the results.
i wan wan so badly to get good results la.
i wan to STUDY le.
*MOTIVATION PLEASE!

i feel so loved in sch!
hahas. dunno y?
maybe whenever i'm sad or wat frens are always there.
like wat bao bei said.
our frens are the ones who brought us HAPPINESS!
THANKS JUSTIN AND JOANNE...
for the lovely card and MOONCAKE!

but is so contradicting!
i wan wan so badly to get out of this sch too.
facing them is reali a chore.
school is so messy messy okay!
i don feel like talkin bout it! =DDD
PHOTOS TIME!








me n maine!!! <3!

***i cant upload anything again!
wait okay.
shall post next time.=DDD
12:13:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Sunday, September 24, 2006

i'm gonna get so so influenced by tommy goh le.
havin later n later nights everyday. =(
den munchin away with finger foods!!!
all the FATS. lols.

talk to yaya on msn last night.
it's been long since we got such a long talk.
yea! i do miss u alright. =D
lots of catch up need to be done.
i wanna wanna have lunch with her soon!!!
hahas. and chris n swan too =DDD

woke up not long ago.
planned to finished my fnn essays.
but as expected...
i spend my time chatting away.
someone pls get me motivated pls!
hahas.

prayin hard to get good results tmr.
but i don think will la.
this prelims is so so messy.
i didnt reali study tat much too.
shall blame myself for those lousy results den.
i cant cant let my o's to be like tat.
or else i'm sure to regret BIG TIME.

somethings reali need TIME to let go.
i PROMISE u guys i will stay strong n forget! =D
thanks for everything for those who stayed by me.
4:34:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Saturday, September 23, 2006



i wan wan to eat this!

any kind soul will buy for me?
10:37:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

prelims over!
but the bad news is..
o's are nearin!!!

anyway went to play bball yesterday.
with my darlings gals+daren n stanley.
i got my reason for callin stanley along. =D
anyway i do not blame him at all too.
we are still frens.
i REALLY REALLY enjoy MYSELF SO SO MUCH!
is been long since we last sit tgt...
talk, craps, lunch, gossiping and laugh ALONE in fours.
it reali makes me forget EVERYTHING!
thanks gals for the fun times ur gave.
AND most importantly ur are always there whenever i need.

went thru ur stuff last night.
can see tat u alrdy let go of everything.
u've even make a step further in life.
but the silly foolish me! =(
i know in my heart something still seems missing but.
i know i jus need the time to heal all wounds.
everything jus happen too fast.
still kind of cant accept u r no longer mine.
i shouldn't be missing u.
thinkin bout ur safety n shit.
is hard to let go!
cos i'm still missin the feelin.
2:20:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Thursday, September 21, 2006

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAi Li!!


i'm feelin so so moodless.
alot of things running thru my mind.
nowadays i wished sch nvr end earlier.
i dunno where to head after sch?
everyone got its own life afterall.

poa paper?
i don even know wat i'm doin.
guessin the answers i guess.
things are not goin its way.
prelims isn't a good start for major paper.
i'm so worried bout the results.
i'm gettin the colds now.

things hasn't been going right?
THEY do think i'm in the fault of blamin them?
stand in my shoes.
do u feel the guilt?
i jus wan to stop watever ever shit stuff with UR.
don bring disturbance to my life will UR.
get a fuck outta my LIFE!

i'm standing here alone
hoping that all the sadness will go off
bringing in the happiness that i want;
wishing that everything will end soon-
3:54:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

I’m not missing you; Stacie orrico

Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you
Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that it's over
What else could it be, he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I'm not missing youI
'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2
No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going becauseI got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing

I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me (knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because (it's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distanceI'm not missing
I'm not missing you
I'm not missing you (oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
3:17:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Wednesday, September 20, 2006

went to eat supper with two hungrys persons!
TOMMY N DAREN!
so dark when is late n night ar!!! hahas.
today no SCHOOL!
went to the mac early in the morning to meet the 2 morons!
super super long never meet them le. hahas.
they are still as idiot as last time. =P
went to play pool later.
yeah!!! i won 1 n lose 1!
daren... good improvement rite.
see how the two morons play billards i kind of understand le.
mus learn!!! but i guess i'm still too short to play. =(
catch two dvds as i got to return them to the bastard le.
poor deb jus finish sch when we is alrdy home. =P

stop treatin me as a fool will u two.
i know i know much much more.
my friends are not FAKE like ur.
i know EVERY single HAPPENINGS.
put urself in my shoes?
wat will YOU feel?
stop the expaination is not helpin.
it onli adds to more hatred!
is ENOUGH i wanna draw a close to all this!

AND i'm enjoyin my life again!
no disturbance PLEASE!
5:39:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Tuesday, September 19, 2006

i have realise i've been a fool all this while.
few weeks i guess?
hopefully all this nonsense stop now.
I'VE LET GO OF HIM
N HERE I PROUDLY SAY TAT I'VE DITCH HIM!
i don need him anymore.
wat a irresponsible guy he is.
flirt ard n didint clean his mouth.
kena caught and run away.
HUM CHI!!!
everything not gonna be easy for u le!
all the best ar?

thanks my dear bro keene!
without him ar i guess i will still be in the dark.
i rather get hurt by ur words den get ditch by him.
yea! anyway tat's wat true frens are for rite?
thanks and thanks. u mean so much to me!!!
not like some idiot S*A*L*Y!
for wat we have done so much for you.
only to know tat u still sides him when everything is wrong.
i know now u r happier.
all in a group and i'm sure now u gonna lose us this group of fren!
one day i'm sure u will realise hu is ur fren.

tat girl don blame me for callin u a bitch!
not my fault.
if this would have happen on YOU i'm sure u will do the same.
the one hu wishes us all the best
n the one hu DESTROYS everything.

***kaili darling.
i've never blame u or wat.
jus tat i'm kind of upset jus now.
don worry i will be alright.
thanks alot for ur concern. <3
4:23:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Monday, September 18, 2006

today is fnn paper.
i studied. read thru. but didnt memorise.
the paper was hard.
yupp but all questions attempted.
but i don think will do well.
i'm losin focus.
cause YOU are reali affectin me.
quarrelled last night.
u would usually called or sms to ask if i'm alright?
but no u didnt!
till today i don even got a sms from u.
i'm scare. i'm losin YOU!
i don wanna be the silly one everyone is sayin.
by sayin lettin go is easy but...
action speaks louder.
i don bear!
don hurt me any more.
let me know the reason n let u go.
i tried my best in salvaging this relationship!
but do YOU even care?

If loving you is all that means to me
and being happy is all I hope you will be.
Then loving u must mean I really have to set u free!
5:36:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

The guy who love you , if he can't always see you,
he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you,
because he knew,
if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.
The guy who love you can't tell you the reason why he love you.
he only knew that, in his eyes,you are the only one.
The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if you din't reply his message but others, because he cares.
The guy who love you, will not give any promise that easily,
because they don't want to break the promise,
they want you to believe him and they want to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.
The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much,
because they already plan it for you, he want to give u the best life in the future,
he want to give you a suprise, belive him that he can do it.
The boy who love you, don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry,
but he will sent a message to you after few hours,
if you ask him why he call that late, he will said,
when you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish.
But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works.
if i ever get u, i'll nv let u leave my arms again .
Never , never ever . ;)
5:31:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Sunday, September 17, 2006

blogging seems to be the onli way tat takes my unhappiness.
let me rant and rant without answering to anyone.
ppl bear with me for this period of time.
everything is happening tgt.
i felt helpless all of a sudden.
DON READ MY BLOG IF IT ANNOYS YOU=D

if this continues at home.
i dunno wat i will do next?
leave hse?
i jus hope pray n wish tat they will jus leave me alone!
is ENOUGH!
don they know is a MAJOR EXAM this year?
i need a place to settle down.
studies is gettin haywired!
life is SO screwed up!
i guess tat SOMEONE still dunno all this happenings.
hais!

m i really suppose to let go?
It hurt so much to love you the way I do,
and then look at you and realize how much you don’t care.
3:21:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

oops!
forgot to mention bao bei!!!
she nv fails to be there la.
she's the one hu make the below song out of microsoft words.
she's the one tat make my day!
LOVE YOU n THANKS FOR EVERYTHING U'VE done!
MWAS!
12:05:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Saturday, September 16, 2006

I'll Be There For You
So no one told you life was going to be this way
Your jobs a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year but..
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
You're still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast So far...
things are goin' great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
Oh but she didn't tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that...
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
No one could ever know me
Seems you're the only one who knows
What it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst I'm best with you, yeah
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year...
I'll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
I'll be there for you
'Cuz you're there for me too...
thanks darlin gals n FRENS!!!
for u guys never endin care n concern.
i'm feelin much better le.
everything will be alright! =DDD

11:56:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Friday, September 15, 2006

i seriously need SOMEONE so badly now!
y everything is not on the right track?
studies, relationship, family n LIFE.
sometimes i jus feel like lettin go of everything.
but do i bear?

y isn't dear beside me?
assuring me tat nth is goin wrong.
i'm still thinkin whether he care?
frens are more impt i guess?
do i still stand a place in his heart?
even when i need him so badly NOW!
i sometimes wonder whether i can jus live without him.
but action speaks louder den words.
i CANT.
my heart is sinking with empty hope.
one fine day i will be givin up.

hopefully mum will be alright.
i don mind the scoldings anymore.
jus pray hard n wish she will be fine.
n after all bad times.
mum n dad will be spendin time happily again.
praying upon the stars.
wishin tat everything will be in place again.


don worry peeps if ur see this post.
i will be fine BUT onli when everything is fine.
take care.
2:27:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Tuesday, September 12, 2006

yes yes yes!
i know is not the right time to be bloggin now.
but but but...
i this weirdo can onli study in the night.
and is in the wee hours lor.
lols.

went to bowl on sat!
is reali reali fun la.
being a beginner hu didnt touch bowlin for 2 years.
can get all the pins down a few times!
ACHIEVEMENT OKAY!!! lols.
but tat was due to the challenge my cousins set
tat make me motivated!

school REOPEN ytd!
bored.
tat means more late nights le.
will be havin pelims all the way till next week la.
i'm havin cold shivers la.
heard from deona tat parents will be notified of our results.
yupp yupp! *nightmare!
social studies paper was alright ytd!
the chapters we spot did come out.
n dear n chee shen actually know wat chapters will be coming out lor!
THEY ARE SUPER KIND.
didnt even tell me. make me study till so late!
practical today was horrible!
shall not say much.

*DARLINGS DDA and frens
i know u guys care alot alot!
i know wat i'm doin
AND i assured ur this will not affect anything k?
be it my studies or life. *promise
i just wanna give US some time n thought.
hopefully things will turn out for the better.
so glad tat at least i know in my darkest moments...
YOUR NEVER FAIL TO BE THERE! =DDD
7:00:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Saturday, September 09, 2006

at times when u feel lost,
u always which tat someone was beside u!
leading u on the right path once again.
i would have been lost without u guys.
thanks dear gals!
HE could not hear the complains u make,
the temper u gave, the attitude u show.
ignorance was wat HE gave.
i need the reassurance from YOU again.
i'm not giving up.
i'm holding on!
waiting for the time you're right beside me,
loving me, pampering me & accompanying me.
like YOU used to be.
1:24:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!
Wednesday, September 06, 2006

yeah!
i'm home.
bein a good girl n listen to mummy to come home n cut cake.
n n n!!!
i HELL LOADS enjoy MY birthday!
it wouldn't be possible without...
DEAR. DDA. DAREN, MERVIN, STANLEY!
n all the smses from...
karen, deona, veron, ting yue, daren, stanley, justin, yi xiu, sarah, yi hao, jovin, mervin, vincent, alina, yun xuan and lots more of my cousin la...
a BIG BIG THANKS TO ALL SMS N TESTIMONIALS N ONLINE GREETINGS N PHONE CALLS!!!
ur make my day n most importantly i'm glad to know tat i'm not forgotten!

tmr gonna be back to square 1 again!
math remedial clinic session!
den mus go into real studyin le.
got to have an early rest after this.
tata!!!
10:30:00 PM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!

i got such a hard time loggin into blogger okay!!!
cant the stupid blogger give in to me today!

anyway!
shall not let tat damn thing dampen my mood.
I'M OFFICIALLY 16!
can i name it a sweet 16!
with so many stressful things on the way!
but i'm glad.
i can watch movies without ppl bringing me in.
play pool at K pool without any problem.
n much more stuff i guess. =P

to all sweeties:
i'm so glad tat u guys remember my b'day!
u guys lil' greeting do make my day!
i will enjoy myself de. loves!!!

***i know it clear!
u stil love me n care for me.
but i jus need tat lil' understanding and honesty u will give to me.
i treasure the times we do have n will not easily give up.
i promise to trust u as long as u do ur part n be honest to me.
u r in a big big place on my lil' heart.
loves YOU! 160606!!!
12:34:00 AM
YONE, TWO. A STEP AT A TIME.!




The GirlY


YEO yeeleng! =D
ex dqps
ex bpsian
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mdis- dip in BM
yeeleng9096@hotmail.com
loves DEONADEBORAHALISA
loves HER CLIQUES
all about me:D

desires! =D Y

GRADUATION DAY
FAMILY it used to be.
CAMERA!
bangkok yr 2009!
new phone!
many many LOVES! =D

Wish Upon those StarsY

all my loves:D

5+5! <3!
PEIYING =D!
DEONA <3!
KENNETH ^_^!
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GUO YONG =D!
ESTELLE =D!
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YIHAO =D!
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MINGLI =D!
LIONEL =D!
JESSICA=D!
BENJAMIN=D!
SALVANA=D!
STUDENT UNION=D!
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